The Glimmer of Light

Hello faithful blog readers! Thought I’d pop in and say hi.

[Also note that the majority of this post was written around a week ago.]

Life is crazy but pretty awesome nonetheless. For one thing, last week was Crazy Writing Week. What’s crazy writing week? Basically a competition to write a bunch. I wasn’t going to join, but I ended up using it as motivation to tackle all of my school-related writing. Which means I now have time to write one blog post.

So where have I been? What have I been doing? What’s up?

Life’s pretty much the same as it has been for the past year. Too much time staring at a screen. Tired of being limited because of a pandemic. But there have been ups and downs.

This week I feel motivated. Pumped. Happy. Next week I might feel discouraged and buried under schoolwork. But life is still good. All I have to do is look up from my computer to see it. In fact, I don’t even have to look up from my screen to see it. In the corners of my PC desktop are Word documents titled “Dear Lord” or “Dear God.” They are combinations of letters and prayers to God, and every word reminds me of how faithful He is. Things I didn’t see then I can see now. Things I still don’t understand I can now place in His hands.

Life’s been the same. I’m pretty much just the same, too. Same struggles, same discouragements. But I think I am growing. Slowly, painfully, I am learning some things.

I’m not finding the answers I always wanted. I still haven’t figured out the secret to being motivated, the secret to smiling when you’re down, or the secret to getting mountains of tasks completed. But I’m learning to place all those things in His hands.

I don’t understand the mysteries of the universe. I don’t know the answers to the questions vibrating through my brain. And yet, I can write letter after letter to my Father in Heaven asking and asking and asking, and He’s still listening. At the end of the day, I may not get the satisfaction and peace of having figured out just the right solution, of having perfectly put the puzzle pieces together, but it’s okay. Because His peace is the peace that surpasses understanding.

My heart might be filled with sadness, disappointment, and confusion, yet in it all his perfect peace can shine through and light up the darkness.

I’ll keep pressing on to that glorious light. I’ll keep seeking His face. I’ll never stop wanting to understand. But that twinkle of light sparkling from the corners of my mind is enough. It only takes a spark to destroy the darkness and as long as I have Him, I’ll never be without that glimmer of light.

So hold onto that glimmer and don’t let go.

Peace That Surpasses All Understanding

“And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.”

-Philippians 4:7

Some of my earliest memories of going to bed include my mom singing Amazing Grace and praying for us after she’d tucked us in before she softly shut the door.

And I remember in particular one particular phrase that she used to pray over us. She would pray that God would give us that peace which surpasses all understanding.

It always comforted me, but I wouldn’t say I really understood what it meant at that point.

And later on even after mom didn’t always sing us to sleep with Amazing Grace, she would still often pray that phrase over us. When I came across the book of Philippians and claimed it as my favorite book in the Bible I saw that phrase again. And I mused over it. I still do. It comforted me. It still does.

And when studying Colossians 3 these past few weeks, particularly in light of the awful things going on in the whole world, in my world, and in other peoples’ worlds, I was reminded of that comforting peace.

And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful.

-Colossians 3:15

I long for peace. I crave peace. I want that in me! I need it.

Don’t you? When you look around at the hurt, the sorrow, the deep darkness penetrating everything around, doesn’t your soul just cry out for peace?

I sure do.

Searching for escape, I try to bury myself in other things, to hide from the turbulence the unending disturbance. But it doesn’t work. It can’t guard me forever.

In fact, it can’t guard me at all.

But there is this peace that protects.

There is this peace that guards, that rules over the hurt, that comforts.

And this peace is from God alone.

But the thing is, it doesn’t make sense. It doesn’t have to. This peace is so great it surpasses all understanding.

Let me say that again.

I know a peace that is greater than, that surpasses, ALL understanding.

That means I don’t have to hide. I don’t have to run. I don’t have to worry.

I can let the peace of Christ rule in my heart. It will guard my heart, it will guard my mind.

And it surpasses all understanding.

May the peace of God which surpasses all understanding guard your hearts and minds!! God be with you all.