There are days when I cannot sleep. There are also nights when I find it very hard to sleep.
The funny thing is…….when I’ve had a bad day I don’t usually find it that hard to fall asleep. After all, I’m exhausted. Sometimes I have so many thoughts and thinks running through my head that it is a lot harder to fall asleep.
But the nights when I really can’t sleep aren’t those nights. The nights when I just want to get up and do something when I’m lying in bed perfectly awake for hours after regular bedtime, those nights are rarely sad nights.
Sometimes I think God just reaches down and blesses us with something even more special than he does every day. He gives us joy. Perfect unmatchable joy. Undying joy. (Sorry Erica, but it’s just such a beautiful way of thinking about it!)
This joy comes with a song, with a melody, an anthem if you will. My soul simply fills with praise and I cannot contain it. I want to jump up and pretend I know how to do pirouettes and spin in circles till I’m dizzy.
I remember one night I was lying in bed. My older sister who is my roommate hadn’t come in yet and was taking care of the goats. I was pretty sleepy or tired, can’t really remember which, and I was sorta just ready to curl up in a ball and go to sleep.
But then I heard a little voice. It prodded me saying “You haven’t spent any time with God yet today. It would only take a moment to pray. Why not?” So I was like “Okay, okay, I’ll spend some time with God real quick before I fall asleep.”
So I sat up in bed and began talking to God and praising him. As I was sort praying/meditating/ praising (whatever you wanna call it) on just how great God is, a song came into my head.
It was fairly early in the evening (at least for a homeschooler) and as I said, my older sister hadn’t gone to bed yet, so I figured I wouldn’t disturb anyone if I sang quietly.
I began singing one of my favorite songs ever. It goes:
There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring
And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling
How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing
I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives
And I will walk with You
Knowing You’ll see me through
And sing the songs You give
I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing ’cause You pick me up
Sing ’cause You’re there
I can sing ’cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I’ll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne
There are songs that get stuck in your head, but there are also ones that go even further: to the heart. This one is in my head, my heart, my mind, my soul, and my spirit. It’s a song that I’ll never stop singing even when my lips stop.
There is a song that will forever echo in my soul. It will stay there through the storms, through the darkest nights, because I KNOW that my Saviour lives, and I KNOW that I am loved by the King.
I don’t care how scratchy or awful your voice sounds to you, sing. Sing from your heart and soul. Even if you cannot sing out loud, you can always sing and you must sing. The one and only YAHWEH deserves to be worshiped and praised. And once you come to know his love you cannot help but sing.
There is one line from a hymn that makes me rejoice so much:
When this poor lisping, stamm’ring tongue
Lies silent in the grave,
Then in a nobler, sweeter song
I’ll sing Thy pow’r to save:
I’ll sing Thy pow’r to save,
I’ll sing Thy pow’r to save;
then in a nobler, sweeter song
I’ll sing Thy pow’r to save.
We may be lisping, stammering tongues, but one day he will transform us and we will sing forevermore.
“For our citizenship is in heaven, from which also we eagerly wait for a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ; who will transform the body of our humble state into conformity with the body of His glory, by the exertion of the power that He has even to subject all things to Himself.” -Philippians 3:30-21
When I think of that one night when a song filled my heart and God blessed me with so much joy I could not sleep, it always reminds me of a beautiful verse that I now have taped to the wall above my bed.
“Let the godly ones exult in glory;
Let them sing for joy on their beds.
Let the high praises of God be in their mouth,
And a two-edged sword in their hand” -Psalm 149:5-6
Let us sing for joy on our beds! Let us praise him with joy wherever we are and wherever we go!
May you not only have a song stuck in your head but a melody in your heart. God bless you and may you spread joy wherever you go!
As you may have guessed, this weeks featured song is How Can I Keep From Singing by Christ Tomlin.
[Side note we just had a bunch of baby goats born!!!! Pictures may be coming soon! We have 9 baby goats! They’re so cute!!!!! Two of them are Nigoras, too! So cute!]
“Praise the Lord!
Praise God in His sanctuary;
Praise Him in His mighty expanse.
Praise Him for His mighty deeds;
Praise Him according to His excellent greatness………
……Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.
Praise the Lord!” -Psalm 150:1-2,6
“Therefore you too have grief now; but I will see you again, and your heart will rejoice, and no one will take your joy away from you.” -John 16:22
(All Scripture Quotations are from the NASB translation)